Deep Inside of Lost

I haven't come here in a while, I've wanted to, but I made myself not because I'm so tired of telling you I'm lost.  Telling you I miss you.  Expressing I'm scared.

But I am, and I do.

I am so frigging deep inside of lost that I'm petrified I will never find my way out.

I have been through SO much in my life but I'm strong, I pick up and walk through it...always. But THIS.  THIS has crippled me.  Mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually.

I have been circling the drain for so long now and I can't make it stop.

I am so fucking deep inside lost.