Chasing Cars

I remember shortly after we realized what we had found with each other and I was still living in Arkansas, before you even asked me to marry you...I was listening to the song Chasing Cars. I've always listened to music very thoughtfully, really feeling the lyrics and trying to find the meaning of the words.  Well I was listening to this song and felt that they fit us, at least in my interpretation of the words.  We were struggling with how to come together, how to not hurt others with our decisions and just how much 'I love you' didn't come close to describing what we were feeling.  I know...cheezy teenager mush, right. Ha Ha.  That's what we were though...the teenagers we parted as just with 27 years added in.  

Anyways,  I copied the lyrics down and sent them to you as kind of a love letter from me to you and it just became our unspoken song after that.  From time to time when I would be missing you I would post a line on Facebook that would mean nothing to anyone who saw it...but you would know.  You would know that I was speaking of being profoundly lonely and deeply in love with you.

Well, I found our CD, it was unmarked so I didn't know what it was and soon found myself listening to Chasing Cars, UGH.  It wasn't a pretty scene, I was a blubbering mess but what else is new.  So here again, is my love letter to you my David...only now it is much more profoundly sad, as it speaks of my unending loneliness and unfulfilled longing for you.

We'll do it all

Everything

On our own

We don't need

Anything

Or anyone

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know

How to say

How I feel

Those three words

Are said too much

They're not enough

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told

Before we get too old

Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time

Chasing cars

Around our heads

I need your grace

To remind me

To find my own

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told

Before we get too old

Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am

All that I ever was

Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where

Confused about how as well

Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

-Snow Patrol