August 15th

I swam in the ocean today David...

I had to make my peace with it,  I had to get past my anxiety and back to the life long love affair I have had with it.  It was not easy, but it had to be done. 

I'm trying so very hard to stay 'me'.  So much of me has been taken away, so much of me has changed...I have to take control where I can.  I am so heartbroken and I am being buried by the pain of it all, and the visions.  

I have to flip it the bird when I can...right?!?

I love you David, and I miss you in a bad way.  Thank you for providing me with the strength I needed today.

xoxo