July 14th

It's time for me to call it a day.  I am not okay, for so many reasons, on so many levels. 

I think of you every minute of every day, though I shake my head so much now people probably think I have a 'nervous tick'.  I don't, I just have a head full of questions with no answers, a head full of visions with no end, and eyes full of tears...and so I shake my head a lot.

I love you my busband, myh best friend.  I love you as much now as ever and the pain of it hurts. I would love to see you and feel you if you would like to be near me.  

Goodnight lover.